It’s been a while.
Enemy thought there may be something new to start over with. There wasn’t.
I will take 4-5 weeks off this time.
He’s on vacation this week so I’ll slip an email towards the end of the
week. I saw my PDOC last week and asked
a few questions, ended up not getting Ambien.
Next year I’ll not ask questions!
Got everything else and am set for another year. He couldn’t come up with any therapist I
could talk to with D.I.D. experience. I
just smiled and said that was O.K.
I am cycling more so than during the winter months. I think it is because the days are
longer. I am excited about the window
treatments we are getting I think this coming week. They are plantation blinds and will cover all
of our front windows. They are 2 ½ inches
wide. I will be able to let the sun in,
but keep my privacy and let the dogs look out of the window all day. I feel guilty when I draw the curtains after
1:30 P.M. with the dogs having nothing much to do with the rest of their
Enemy asked me who someone was that I had mentioned during
Chat Tuesday. I had already mentioned
her 20-30 times in the time I had seen him. He doesn’t hear me. He also asked that I continue to keep a “log”. I don’t keep a “log” and haven’t a clue what
it is. I received the bill in the mail
yesterday and it dawned on me that it sure is a lot of money for no results
what so ever. I can tweak my medications
and my “moods” can delve into madness eventually if that is their plan or vicariously
suck the oxygen out of my brain until life is finished. I also can continue to live
each day as presented and see where it takes me. I don’t think this is the first time around,
I just think I have to get it right