A few days ago I looked at the bottom of the monitor and saw that I had a new message that had not been sent yet? Again, I’m not a computer person, so I clicked onto it and found an email that I had apparently written the night I took all of the Xanax and 5 mgs. of Ambien. I am so relieved that it was never sent. I cannot imagine why I would have ever have thought of writing such an email and even worse, to the Enemy! I am just not at the trust stage with him yet.
So here is what I wrote – no editing – except a couple of sentences and my husband’s name. Of course spell check was not used :
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Really a bit odd, but if you read between the lines, and know the family history, you can make sense of some of it. I’m glad I didn’t hit “spell check” it probably would have smoked the poor computer to an early death! A lot of marital disagreements I feel have to do with past events from our parents actions. My husbands mother had problems with her neighbors and he is putting her crap onto me. The word is transference? That came up during Xmas as well as every 3 months as well. I find it interesting the words I did spell correctly.
So, I am going to bring the email to chat session tomorrow and ask a few questions about it, but will not show it to Enemy. I just wonder why it was written. I was so careful to take the phone off of the charger and would never believe what ever I took would cause this communication from me. Again, why on earth would I ever attempt an email to anyone in the shrink field? I’m just not into playing games. I just don’t understand where this comes from.